Satan

This entry is part 3 of 10 in the series humility

Yesterday, I wrote about the start of Andrew Murray’s book Humility and the tremendous blessing that humility brings. Murray states that humility is “being clothed with the very beauty and blessedness of Jesus.” Having offered this enticement, he moves in the second chapter to graphically describe the fruit of pride.

As Murray sees it, we will either walk in pride because we are bearing the fruit of sin, or we will walk in humility because we are bearing the fruit of Jesus Christ living in us. Adam and Eve walked in humility–total dependence on God–until they believed the lie of Satan and allowed pride in. Murray writes that the life that came from Adam and Eve

became corrupted to its very root with that most terrible of all sins and curses–Satan’s pride. All the wretchedness of which this world has been the scene, all its wars and bloodshed among the nations, all its selfishness and suffering, all its vain ambition and jealousy, all its broken hearts and embittered lives, with all its daily unhappiness, have their origin in what this cursed pride–our own or that of others–has brought on us.

He goes on to say,

No tree can grow except on the root from which it sprang. The pride that Satan brought from hell and whispered into the life of humankind is working daily, hourly, and with mighty power throughout the world. Men and women suffer from it; they fear and fight and flee it; and yet they don’t always know where it has come from or how it has gained such terrible supremacy. No wonder they don’t know how to overcome it. Pride has its root and strength in spiritual power, outside of us as well as within us… it is satanic in origin.

Lest we focus on wars and suffering and so think pride can’t be at work in us (“It’s all other people!”), Murray brings it down to the everyday, to where we live:

Let us consider how our lack of love, indifference to the needs and feelings of others, even sharp comments and hasty judgments that are often excused as being honest and straightforward, are thwarting the effect of the influence of the Holy Spirit on others. Manifestations of temper and touchiness and irritation, feelings of bitterness and estrangement, have their root in nothing but pride.

Ouch! At least one of those describes me–actually, the whole list does at one time or other, and on same days, I might be able to check off all of them! I appreciate that Murray doesn’t allow any wiggle room or excuses.

Over the past few years, the Holy Spirit has been teaching me that I am always responsible for my behavior, whether action or reaction. Most of us don’t have a problem with the first premise, but we balk at the second. If you are unkind to me, and I am ugly back, I like to blame my reaction on you and your behavior: “If you hadn’t said X, I wouldn’t have shouted Y.”

That is, to be blunt, a lie from the pit of hell.

I always have control over my actions; I always have a choice. Let me say that again, and you can repeat it with me: I always have control over my actions. I always have a choice. Consider Jesus: Peter tells us that Jesus refused to answer back to those who insulted and threatened. How did He manage this? He “continued entrusting Himself to God, who judges justly.” As I understand it, continually entrusting ourselves to God is the essence of humility.

Though it’s not enjoyable, it is good to be reminded of the power of sin and the fruit that it produces. It’s good to allow the Holy Spirit to confront the darkness in our lives. My prayer for you and for me is that we will invite Him to search out the pride that lurks within us; only when it’s exposed can we deal with it.

The Little Book of Hours has included readings from Psalm 119 every day for the past week, and Saturday’s portion blessed me. The writer says,

This is my comfort in my affliction,
that your promise gives me life.
The insolent utterly deride me,
but I do not turn away from your law. (v. 50–51)

In the past, I read affliction as sickness or some other source of physical suffering. And it can certainly mean that. For most of us, though, we likely experience more pain and suffering in relationships, and relational issues–people problems–can suck the life out of us pretty quickly.

There’s a person at church that hurt me some time back, and I’ve prayed to deal with my feelings toward him. I’ve forgiven him–repeatedly (I should note that I sometimes have a hard time letting go). Every time I’m back to a place where I can be loving, he does something that hurts or angers me again (though I don’t think he even knows he does it most of the time). I’m learning to practice 70 times 7. Short of changing churches, I can’t avoid him, so I’m praying for the Spirit to show me how to deal with him, and the Spirit is faithfully doing that.

So here’s what I saw Saturday: in the midst of life-sucking problems, God’s promise can, as the NIV says, “restore my life.” Which promise, you ask? I’m not sure which one applies in my current situation (I’m still pondering that), but I took tremendous comfort in realizing that I don’t have to let people problems drain me. If–when–I focus on God’s promises, rather than the problem, I will find life.

I know that a major source of affliction for me is in my thinking: I tend to turn things over, replay conversations, imagine what I should have said, fantasize a confrontation, rehearse the whole catalog of offenses–you get the picture. I’ve realized over the past few years that some of this comes from me, but some of it is comes from the enemy, “the insolent” of this passage.

I like the way the NIV renders this: “the arrogant mock me without restraint.” Satan is a mocker: “you let her say that to you?” “Look what he did; it’s just like last time.” And we know that the enemy will work without restraint–if we let him. For me, when I can stop the flow of negative thoughts long enough to recognize that the enemy is working to steal my joy and my life, I’ve won half the battle.

Is there a situation that’s stealing the life from your living? Search God’s word for His promises, and find one that gives you life. And recognize that heeding the voice of the mockers only makes it worse. I’ll let you know what promise I find to help me with this people problem. Leave a comment and tell us which promise restores your life.